Why have I decided to write a blog?
What is my goal through this blog?
This is my effort to figure out who I am...
...To figure out where I got lost along the way.
...To pull myself out of this depression I've recently entered.
...To discover what I'm good at.
...To find joy in life again.
Don't get me wrong, I have plenty to be joyful about. I am married to a wonderful husband who is an active dad - Mr. Mom really. He has a full time job, yet is the person who really holds our house together. He's a good cleaner, good cook, takes the kids to most of their after school obligations, coaches teams - he's super dad. We have two wonderful kids - Lauren is 10 and Aidan is 8. We just built a beautiful new house. We know and love Jesus. So where's the problem right?
I know that I am the problem. I have fallen victim to the problem of putting everything else first and in turn losing who I am. I have a demanding job that causes me to work many nights and weekends. My career has been my life for many, many years, but I'm finding as I get older it doesn't provide me with the same joy it used to. Outside of my career, my kids are my next main focus. I constantly have the guilty working mom thing going. Always wishing I had more time, more patience - just that I was more for them.
Unfortunately over the years I've lost touch with friends. I want to work on this because I miss it terribly. I've let my fitness go, gaining entirely too much weight. This needs to be a priority too. Basically everything that I feel is important and should be a priority in making a happy life, has slipped away. This is my attempt to reconnect with those things because at the end of the day we have one life to live and I truly want to make it a happy life. One that I can look back on and be proud of and ultimately I want to Design a Happy Home. I'm so happy you are on this journey with me!
